
Author: meisaj
Glad I’ve left the church…
I’ve been an atheist for a long time. It’s been 20+ years since I’ve considered myself a Catholic.
I’ve only called myself an atheist for the last 12 or so years. A slow journey from the hypocrasy of the Catholic church to the realization that religion, spirituality, or anything resembling that has no place in my life.
But the church still baffles me. What does it do in response to declining membership, increasing scandals, and a narrow world view…. It puts up walls.
And why…. Because Joe Biden is Catholic, President, and Pro-Choice.
My dad once told me “When I’m asked if it bugs me that you don’t attend church anymore, I tell them that it doesn’t at all. That I believe you (and your siblings) are good, kind, people that I can be proud of. That I think being raised in the Catholic church helped with that.”
This was long after I stopped going to church and well on the way to out and out calling myself an atheist. And for a long time I really liked what my dad said.
But reflecting on it over a decade later, giving any credit to the church is too much and takes away from the amazing people my mom and dad are.
My morals, who I am as an adult is largely in part to how he and my mother raised me, not some narrow minded conservative organization that shelters pedophiles, treats women as second class citizens unable to hold the same positions as men, and holding onto the belief the a woman’s body is no longer her own to make decisions over once she is pregnant – no matter the circumstances that lead to the pregnancy, the current situation or beliefs of the woman, or health/medical factors regarding either fetus or woman.
Open Up the Space
I had this dream last night where I was listening to music through a stereo system outdoors on the lawn. I was trying to play music from my phone through the system using Bluetooth, and while the knobs showed I was connected, no music played.
I started to hear these voices in the air that said “open up the space,” over and over again in an almost sing songy way.

I don’t know what that means or what I needed to do because I woke up right after that. But all morning I have had “open up the space” going through my head.
I must be saying it aloud also because Marceline repeated it.
Cardboard Paradise
We have been storing a large box from our new fridge since March. It takes up quite a bit of space in the garage but on days like yesterday I think its worth it.

A collection….
Just a collection of things Marceline believes should be on the top of her bookcase.

Sam has taken to calling Marceline a little magpie lately. It’s pretty appropriate.
Also just a taste out her amazing wall art.
103 Days
Today marks 103 days of doing push-ups everyday.
The first 99 of those days I did 100 push-ups a day.
On the 100th day, April 10th, I did 1,000 push-ups.
Today the 103rd day of the year marks my 100th day of running so far this year. In the month of March I took off 3 days. One when I wasn’t feeling well and had a fever. One before I ran a half marathon, and one day off for recovery after my half marathon.
Today marks the 13th day in a row I’ve run 5 mi each day. I’ve convinced myself that I’m trying to ‘bank’ miles for the month of April because I’m having another daughter born any day now in my schedule will be a little off or a lot off after she’s born.
But I like that I’ve hit these milestones and that I’ve kept at it. Leaves me feeling accomplished.

