Here it is less than a week until my birthday and I find myself wishing it was one of those years where I had no choice as for what I was doing for my birthday, like Carrie’s wedding or something.  I spent that birthday in the Pittsburgh Airport getting drunk at a bar by myself for hours.  As awful as that was, it almost sounds tempting as it takes doing anything big or special for my birthday out of my hands.  I don’t really want to do anything, although, seemingly the friends I have out here want to do something for my birthday.  They don’t quite get that I don’t care or want to do anything.

My birthday does nothing but make me reflect upon the last year.  It hasn’t been a bad year by anymeans, but I’m not sure I’ve made much life progress.  Things seem to have gotten busier and yet at the same time, duller maybe.  I feel like its time for upheaval again.  Or at least some adventure. But that requires someone to adventure with.  I’m not sure I have that someone right now.

I don’t know.  I’m still doing my daily drawings and have decided this will be the month to update my daily drawings page.  I haven’t posted since October.  It’ll be a little bit of an effort to get it up and running, but I’m sure I can.  Keeping it updated might be another matter.  I post from my iMac.  My 2002 iMac.  I can’t use my scanner with this guy, it needs a USB that it can draw power from, and isn’t compatible with this version of OS X.  I can use it on my laptop, but my laptop, while not being busted, is pretty close to it. Whatever, I’ll make it work.

I came home tonight and wanted a jack and coke.  I had two, and a whiskey on the rocks.  Its over a longer period of time (got home at about 6 tonight and its past 11 right now, not like I’ve drank to excess or anything tonight), but the last time I poured myself a whiskey on the rocks was a long while ago.  It sort of symbolizes (at least in my head) a time period of my life.  So I found it odd that I just wanted one, haven’t had that craving in a while.  Although whiskey is tastey.

Anyways.  Enough rambling.  Off to bed.  Well I have to finish my whiskey first.  Then bed.