I spent Thanksgiving alone this year. I had been invited to a Thanksgiving meal but I turned it down. The day was a strange mix between feeling ok and feeling down. I was lonely, but then didn't want company. I thought of Jenna a lot. And finally, by the end of the day I wanted to get out of the apartment. Around 10 at night I decided I had to leave. I went for a walk thinking I would stop at a bar for a drink or two. Instead I just walked around North-West Cleveland and into Lakewood for about 90 minutes. It was about 40 degrees outside so it wasn't chilly (although I should have worn a hat). I didn't feel like being around anyone, hence I stayed out of the bars. It was strange. I told Jenna once I wasn't a big holiday person and I think thats true.

Today Reg came out. He got here at 9:30 am. It was and is good to see him. We went for a long walk, chatted about our mutual lives and basically hung out. Didn't do much, but that's ok. It was good to see him anyways. Still, my mind, like it has been for the last week and longer, was miles away, locked onto another subject, thinking of another person. Tomorrow is supposed to be decent outside. Maybe a game of Frisbee Golf is due.